Fontessa

Welcome, friend, to a space where words become a pathway and faith takes flight. For me, writing is more than just putting thoughts on paper; it's a sacred act, a complete cleansing of the soul. As I pour out my heart and share inspirations from my own journey, my deepest prayer is that each word you read gently steers your spirit closer to God. It is through Jesus, and Him alone, that we are truly introduced to our Creator – a truth that transformed my life in ways no other could. He is the Way

Tuesday, January 19, 2021

Where can you find a blessing ? | Power Poetry

Where do you find a blessing ?

When the trees stop whispering and the ocean stop roaring.

When the pen can't write and everything around you is one big fight .

When everything is steel and your heart can no longer feel , when all the music stops playing and a poor child won't even try praying.

Where can you find a blessing ?

Where a smile can't be found and your own cant bare to hear the sound .

A fist, a slap ,a woopin is suppose to say " I love you my child," but all it does is make you go out and do something wild .

Where do you find a blessing ?

Somebody please tell the story because i want to feel joy wants more .

But my mama also said " We might endure for a night but joy come in the morning .

If you wait ,so I wait , and try not to hate . So I put my ear to the earth and I wait.

I listen also quietly and I put my eyes to the sky and I wait . I try to see blessings are really free.

But this I know that we are the most steer , that God really let you feel the blessing one through you and one through me .

In due season

Sunday, January 3, 2021

Unexpected Detour (old something written came for a drive of getting lost)10/21/2019

Revelation revealed to me was unexpected detour

I was driving to church on Sunday morning, my usual music blasted in my car enjoying the drive. As I came up on broad street to turn, I am seeing orange cones stopping me from driving forward.I had to reroute taki ng back roads trying to get to the other side. I arrived at a red light an intersection where I had to make a decision . Do I go back ,forward , left , or right? I am beginning to sweat, the light is about to turn green.

I could not go back because a car came up behind me. I could not decide if I should go left or right. There was a police officer in the middle of the intersection, so I rolled down my window and he told me "you can only move forward" onto the street I was trying to turn on. I drove straight ahead excited that I was out of the detour so I continued to drive. I got to main Street and as I am driving there is another blockage that came stopping me from moving forward. I became frustrated like "what is going on"so I had yet again to travel a different road, other than what I am use to traveling .

While in route on the other roads, I became frustrated, laughing talking to God. I continue to drive forward until I got the intersection of where I needed to be. Through all the different roads that I traveled I stilled ended up on the same road and I made it out of the maze, I made it out to the other side.

Conclusion

I want to give up daily and I am not sure of what I am doing in my walk with God. I do not know how to be a Christina women but I continue to be consistent. I am walking with God at times getting frustrated, unsure where he is taking me. What God told me is that I will make it out to the other side. I must keep moving forward even though I may not know where I am going, stay consistent. I remain consistent keeping my eyes on God so that I may keep moving forward. I may feel blind traveling this road , but not really blind because God has me on all sides.

Fontessa Parence

Sunday, December 27, 2020

Reopened wound

Walking back and forth holding myself trying to resist the tear that it about to be fall down my face.

I am feeling, feeling the pain all over again.

The day is here again, I am trying to heal but how can I heal if now being faced with a piece of the pain, past of what once was is no longer. How can you face the reopened wound. I am trying to heal but still incomplete ready to shatter into pieces trying my best daily. Still living one day at a time no longer looking to establish plans for the future trying to just get through the day.

The reopened wound......

Revising a piece of the pain that broke me. How can you move through the secretion of the pain that once was whole at one time. Place that you never thought would end something that was a fairytale come true that ended so suddenly. How can you step into that environment that brings back so much pain weather it's a person, place, or thing. How can you step in this place free of pain letting go of what once was acknowledging was is now your reality.

You better hurry up the laceration is bleeding out "hurry hurry get some towels" I say to myself to cover the reopened wound. No"don't look don't look down it might be really bad this time unable to heal, keep your eyes closed keep your eyes closed.

What are you going to do?

Freaked out by the reopened wound as my heart is beating out my chest. My brain has became overwhelmed with surroundings of confusion. I can't call anyone this time I am falling ,falling again screaming on the inside that I can't take this pain again.

Eyes open looking down as I have now decided to face my reality, my reality, of the reopened wound was just a dream.

Fontessa Parence